Man. When I wrote down this title a month ago, I never expected to be able to apply it to my life so quickly. It’s just proving that drawing circles in your life is no easy task.
As many of you know, I was blessed with an incredible opportunity to travel to Guayaquil, Ecuador. I was beyond excited, and couldn’t wait to see what God would do through our team that was going. The days, weeks, and months have passed, and I couldn’t hardly stand the wait! Finally, it got to two weeks until we leave, and I begin to pack what I needed. I managed to get everything together (in a carry-on, mind you!), and then I realized, I had no idea where my passport was. So, my parents and I began a frantic search all over our house, looking for it. A week later, there was no sign of it.
It finally came to the point that I was beginning to question if God really intended for me to go to Ecuador at all. So I brought my uncertainty to the Lord, asking Him to help me find it or be able to replace it before its too late. I drew my circle around this situation, and today, I recieved my answer.
He told me “no.”
Do I understand why that was His answer? Absolutely not. But, you know what? I don’t have to know why He did it. I don’t have to have all the answers. The Bible says in Romans 8:28
“And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good…”
I don’t understand what God did this for, but I do know that He has a reason for everything, and my faith in Him will be stronger than ever before. No, it doesn’t make sense to me right now, but someday it will. I asked God for His answer, He gave it to me, and now I need to accept it.
With all that being said, I’m not going to Ecuador, but we have found someone to go in my place. So, thankfully there won’t be an empty seat on that plane, and they will be able to experience God in a new and incredible way.
I know that this whole thing may seem trivial to you, but, for me, this has been the hardest thing I’ve been through since I started this journey, and it has changed me in so many ways.
The best thing I’ve learned is that maybe this “no” God has given me may actually be a “not yet.” My time to go to Ecuador may not be now, but someday (maybe next year!) I’ll pray about this, and the “no” of this year will turn into a “yes” in the next!
Yes, my heart still wants to be in Ecuador, and I’m still a bit upset about it, but I’m not going to allow this to hender my relationship with God. I’m going to take the answer God has given me, and rest in His promise that I will see His goodness in all of it. I’m so excited and can’t wait to see what th future holds!
“I believe that I shall look upon the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living! Wait for the Lord; be strong, and let your heart take courage; wait for the Lord!” — Psalms 27:13-14
All my love,
(P.S. Another moral of this story: put your passport in a lockbox so that you always know where it is!)